I'm cranky.
Bad mood because we've been a one-car family while Josh's car has been getting some much-needed repairs. It stresses me out, makes me snippy, and overall it just sucks figuring out everyone's schedules with only one car.
I'm cranky because I forgot to send eggs with Brian to school today so he could dye them. Just pass over that "Mother of the Year" award over to me.
I'm crabby because I thought for sure I had the boys for Easter this year and then when I checked our court order I realized it is their fathers year to have them. Now I have to reschedule the whole April vacation the day before it starts and hope he goes along with it.
I'm in a horrible mood because yesterday I had a parent-teacher conference and I was told again that Corbin can't spell words because he "doesn't want to try" when we've had FOUR different evaluations by FOUR different professionals that all say he has phonological awareness and auditory processing deficits. Couldn't that possibly be why he can't sound out and spell words?
I'm really frustrated because though Corbin's making great progress in math and slow but steady progress in reading, he actually went DOWN in writing/spelling since the fall.
I've been giving myself a guilt-trip since Corbin's OT evaluation last week that told me he basically doesn't have a single integrated reflex (okay I might be exaggerating a little, but not a lot). Why?? Could I have done something different when he was a baby?
I'm throwing myself a pity party because I just want to have one, just one, "typical" kid. Then I'm kicking myself in the ass for even thinking along that line.
I'll try to counteract this with a post of the positive things (because there really were a lot in the same time period) within the next couple of days. But for now I'll wallow in my bad mood with a glass of wine.
12 comments:
Heather, God gives you what you can handle. Those boys are lucky to have a great mom and you are lucky to have two wonderful children. I think it is probably a good thing the boys are with their father for awhile because you need a much needed break. I want you to think about what you have been doing for the last month then have a drink and relax. :)
Well, you are allowed to have a pity party or two just don't let it last too long. Don't forget what a kick ass mom you are!! You deserve that glass of wine. Have some chocolate while you are at it. LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS!!
I'm sorry you are having a rough time! We are all entitled to a pity party now and then! You are dealing with a LOT! It will all work out. And can I just say that I agree with the one car thing. There is something wrong with Josh's and we're trying to make it last until May before fixing it so we've been car pooling and I HATE it. I hate having to drop off everyone and pick up everyone, having to compromise with Josh on the temp, the route, and the music, and not having that time to myself to decompress. (((HUGS)))
you know what? you're totally entitled to have a bad attitude sometimes. We need to. So, throw yourself a huge pity party, then get over it. You don't have time to wallow too long. I'm right here with you, sista!
xxoo
Go for it! Sometimes it's the only thing that works..and when you get some sleep and start another day it seems a lot brighter. That's what I'm hoping for you anyway! ;)
Hang in there.
Well, maybe I'm self indulgent (ha ha, yup, just a bit!) but my pity parties go on for as long as I want them to and involve lots of wine (vodka works too) and cookies too. So be kind to yourself and know that you don't have to be superwoman all the time :)
what were we eating that one time? peanut butter cups, bliss chocolates, and wine? miss those chill girl nights in the living room :)
the car thing is really really hard! i know it seems so trivial but I took it for granted how i could leave earlier to get to work and leave the boys here and josh would finish getting them ready for school. Now I have to have all of us ready to be out the door at the time I have to go to work even though they don't have to leave for another 30-45 minutes...it's just a hassle!!
oh and having to wait for them to pick me up from work- i feel like a child lol
thanks Dani! A blog is really a great place to release, don't you think? ;)
haha, to be completely honest i didn't have any wine last night- i get wine headaches and no way i would've wanted to go to fieldwork today- but once they go I do think I'll have myself a little wine party ;)
oh, yeah. That's what it's all about!
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