Do you make resolutions? I have tried to stay away from them, only so I don't taste that bitter taste of failure when I can't live up to the unrealistic standards that I have set. Why do we believe that a date on a calendar means we can do a complete reversal on the way we live? Kudos, huge kudos, to those who do set the resolutions and keep them.
Despite feeling so negative towards this tradition, it is a tradition. And I'm one of those Moms that love traditions. I explained to Corbin what New Years Resolutions were and for our dinner topic last night we all brainstormed and discussed our choices.
I have a lot of things I'd like to change in my life, but I wanted to settle on something I really think I could achieve. In the end, I decided my resolution would be to just take one day at a time. Next Monday I will be starting clinicals, two separate 8-week settings. I am beyond nervous. Not necessarily for the actual work I'll be doing, but more for the time I'll be away from the boys. I know if I get in the right mindset, it won't be that hard. I just need to tell myself I can do anything for 8 weeks, that May is not that far away (graduation!), and when things are hard I want to just concentrate on that day and not all the major anxieties that I let leak in.
Corbin's was simpler to sum up but he has set some pretty huge standards for himself. In his words, his resolution is to be "the goodest person in the universe".
I'll let you know how we're doing reaching our goals.