Saturday, October 16, 2010

Paradoxical

Brian's test results have begun to show up on our Thoughtful House account page. I haven't had my phone appointment yet with the doctor for him to interpret the results but having read my fair share of books about biomedical treatment I know he has some markers for bacterial dysbiosis. His yeast is all nutty.

Thing is, as I was waiting for the PDF to come up so I could see the results I was hoping & praying something would be "off" in the results.

That's right- I wanted something to be wrong. The last thing I wanted was for that page to pop up with everything in the "normal" ranges.

Does that make me a sick person?

I know it doesn't. I know my train of thought is very similar to most Moms in my situation. I just wanted something to be "off" to prove my gut feeling that something was wrong. I wanted that black-and-white proof to show and say "Look- there is something medical going on underneath these behaviors!". I wanted something that I could treat. I wanted something else to give me a little bit more hope. Hope that maybe there is something we can fix and we will see some more growth- not that yeast is the easiest thing in the world to treat, but it's better than just grasping for straws in the dark.

Like I said, it gives me hope. And that's enough right now.

5 comments:

Lynn said...

That does NOT make you a sick person at all. You know I get it. You want there to be some part of this that is treatable. If there is a discomfort that he can't communicate to you, or that has just become so much a part of his reality that he can't even describe it...you want to be able to address it. And then you hope that addressing it will make them feel better so that they can focus and learn and progress. I must be a real sicko because I'm jealous....

Cheryl D. said...

Hi! I'm visiting via the special needs blog hop!

I totally get it! Getting results showing something is off means that it's fixable!

Christina said...

I totally agree with Lynn. It really helps to know what you are dealing with and have a plan.

Lynn said...

That does NOT make you a sick person at all. You know I get it. You want there to be some part of this that is treatable. If there is a discomfort that he can't communicate to you, or that has just become so much a part of his reality that he can't even describe it...you want to be able to address it. And then you hope that addressing it will make them feel better so that they can focus and learn and progress. I must be a real sicko because I'm jealous....

Christina said...

I totally agree with Lynn. It really helps to know what you are dealing with and have a plan.