Tuesday, July 27, 2010

This is forever.

This is forever.

That was the thought that just popped out of nowhere as I looked down at my beautiful son. He was standing there, doing his own thing. He wasn't having a tantrum or screaming or misbehaving. It was a quiet moment but he wasn't there with me. He was in his own world all by himself. A flash of him as a ten-year-old, then a teenager, then an adult all went through my head- still alone.

These moments always catch me off guard and this time was no different as I felt my eyes brim with tears.

And it was then that I made the decision to go for it. We're going to the Thoughtful House- one way or another! There is no way I could look at Brian as an adult and say to him that I didn't try everything that was offered to me. I love him too much to not take this opportunity.

6 comments:

Dani G said...

Yes, those thoughts creep up on me, too. I get it. You know I do.

Thoughtful house? Good for you! I just made an appointment to see Dr. Bock who wrote a book I call the bible: Healing the New Childhood Epidemics. We'll go in December. I'm in Michigan, he's in New York. But we'll get there.
You're right. Keep doing everything we can. It's the only way.

Heather said...

LOVE LOVE LOVE that book Dani and I would probably go for an appt there- we're doing the Thoughtful House because we got picked for one of their Bright Eyes Project grant- I was still contemplating due to the cost of travelling there but made up my mind- now i'm just getting excited :)

Lynn said...

No one will EVER be able to say that you didn't do everything you could for your son. You must keep us up to date on all of the goings on via your blog.

Christina said...

This post gave me tears. Heather, I can't think of another mother who does more for her kids than you. I'm glad you were able to make a decision and feel strongly about it. Good luck!

Christina said...

This post gave me tears. Heather, I can't think of another mother who does more for her kids than you. I'm glad you were able to make a decision and feel strongly about it. Good luck!

Lynn said...

No one will EVER be able to say that you didn't do everything you could for your son. You must keep us up to date on all of the goings on via your blog.